E-mails March 2003 After the Break Up

            This period of emails occur after I decide that I do not want to be with Stacy anymore. Stacy is desperate to figure out what exactly she needs to change so that I will love her again. She compares herself to my girlfriend and emphasizes how much of her life she has dedicated to me and the kids. I feel sorry for the pain this is causing her. I understand the neediness and try to be patient with all her calling and emailing me during work. At the same time, more I listen to her more disgusted I am of her that she completely misses the point. All I have ever really asked of her was to keep the house clean, care for the kids and hold down a part-time job. She tells me how hard she is working to care for me, yet the house is a mess. She says how the kids are her life but their homework is not done and they go without baths for days. But on the right note, Stacy starts going to school in the evenings. 

            When the affair came out into the open, I broke up with my girlfriend to give Stacy a fair chance. After the break up, I am surprised to learn that my girlfriend is still interested in me. I did not expect this and I am elated. How could I be as lucky to have a second opportunity with her again?  We agree to take things slowly and start by dating to make it a "real" relationship rather than an "affair" this time.

 

 

 

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MARCH 24, 2003

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 7:30 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

are you not there. are you with her?/

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Monday, March 24, 2003 8:31 AM

To:          David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject:  Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

Importance:           High

 

Dave, you keep saying i have done nothing to you. But you cant forgive me for anything. You just keep hurting me alll over, It feels like you enjoy seeing me hurt.

NOT TRUE. I DON'T ENJOY HURTING ANYONE.

You never have time for me.

WE HAVE HAD PLENTY OF TIME TOGETHER.

You dont like anything about me, You say i make you want to runaway when i touch you. You say that when you look at me all you see is evil.

I AM SORRY. I AM NOT GOING TO LIE ANYMORE ABOUT THE WAY I FEEL.

 You keep telling me to get over it, But how do you get over the hurt, You hurt when me i found out that you had been cheating on me for the last year, Then you come back and your not even back but two days and you have sex with her again, and then a month later

you tell me all those mean things and that you still want to be friends.

I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING MEAN. SORRY YOU HAVE TAKE THINGS LIKE I AM BEING MEAN. I AM NOT BEING MEAN. BEING FRIENDS IS THE BEST RESOLVE FOR US RIGHT NOW. BEING ENEMIES IS NOT THE WAY TO BE.

 I have done nothing but take care of you, your house, and our kids and love you through everything. And all you can do is be mean and hateful. Then all  of a sudden your helping around the house you fold clothes, you vacumn, you make the kids dinner, why couldnt you have done that before, Thats all i asked for in the past is a little bit of time to myself which you get all the time.

YOU HAVE ALL DAY LONG TO DO WHAT??? I WISH I HAD KIND OF TIME YOU HAVE. I AM SORRY YOU FEEL THAT WAY STACY! YOU HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD. WHAT YOU CHOSE TO DO WITH IT IS UP TO YOU. IF YOU FEEL YOUR TIME IS WASTED AROUND THE HOUSE THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I COULD HAVE DONE ALL THOSE THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE BEFORE BUT WHY SHOULD I HAVE TOO. I WORK ALL DAY LONG.

 And now all of a sudden your doing it because you dont want me. You dont think that hurts.

YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL THAT WAY.

 I hope that one of these days you will be able to look at me like you use to, I dont want anyone else and there wont be anyone else. You are the only one I want, Your the only one i have ever truly loved and been in love with.

I DON'T FEEL THE SAME. IT MAY BE I DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS BUT I KNOW I DON'T FEEL IT FOR YOU. I THINK IT IS BEST IF WE BOTH TRY TO MOVE ON AND DO THE BEST WE CAN RAISING OUR CHILDREN, AND NOT LET THIS DESTROY THEM. THERE IS NO REASON IT HAS TO EXCEPT BY CHOICE.

Maybe once you work things out in your head hopefully we can work things out and be a family again like its suppose to be. I truly am sorry for you being so angry and sickened by me. I really have changed and i am that person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. i will keep showing you for the rest of my life and if that means i have to die by myself then i guess i will. I meant what i said  that i would never ever cheat on you ever again and i really do mean that. I am sorry if you can wipe away the hurt and the emptiness just like that, but i cant, I am having a really hard time dealing with it. I lost my mom and my brother and sister last year. And this year i lost my family and your respect and anything you ever felt for me. I just cant take it anymore..

YOU CAN BE AN ADULT AND HANDLE IT LIKE AN ADULT AND DROWN YOURSELF IN YOUR TEARS AND REGRETS. ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. IT'S THE BEGINNING OF A NEW ONE. HOPEFULLY A BETTER ONE.

Every time i let myself open up to someone i get hurt. Do you know what the kids told me after you left this morning? They said they

would rather go to work all day with you, then to stay in this house with me.

THAT'S ONLY BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARRING THEM RIGHT NOW. I WISH YOU COULD SEE YOURSELF. YOUR KIDS LOVE YOU. YOU KNOW THAT AND NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE THAT EXCEPT YOU.

Even after everything i have done for them, I was the one there for them when they got hurt, I was there for them when they woke up in the middle of the night with a bad dream, I was there for them when kids made fun of them at school, I was the one that was there for them when you didnt  come home at night or all them weekends you were gone and this is what i get in return.

THEY ARE JUST KIDS!!!! THEY HAVE NOT LEARNED ABOUT APPRECIATING THE PEOPLE WHO TAKE CARE OF THEM. THEY WON'T LEARN THAT UNTIL THEY ARE ON THEIR OWN. YOU KNOW THAT.

I really do want you to be a part of my life in every aspect not just living in this house. I do want you to be a part of me going to school and going with me on wednesday, But i know that is asking too much of you to share any aspect of my life. so after this letter i will leave you alone, and i wont ask anything of you agian, just dont hate me or think of me as some evil and ugly fat person. Because those are the most hurtful things anyone has ever said to me besides telling me that i am worthless and that i will never amount to anything.

YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT THOSE THINGS. HOPEFULLY EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER THIS WAY. WE SHALL SEE.

 

I can see that you dont want to answer me back, oh well i am not your problem anymore so i guess if you dont want to give me the time of day anymore there is nothing i can do about, i am so tired i just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

 

NOT THE RIGHT THING TO DO. SORRY I TOOK SO LONG GETTING BACK TO YOU. I DO HAVE A JOB TO DO AND THIS TO DEAL WITH.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 9:04 AM

To: David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject: please answer me back

Importance: High

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 9:32 AM

To: 'DavidP@tampabay.rr.com'

Subject: FW: please answer me back

Importance: High

 

I can see that you dont want to answer me back, oh well i am not your problem anymore so i guess if you dont want to give me the time of day  anymore there is nothing i can do about, i am so tired i just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 10:52 AM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

SO DOES THIS MEAN THAT YOU ARE GOING TO START LOOKING FOR SOMEONE NEW, I HAVE A RIGHT TO NKNOW SEEMS HOW WE ARE IN THE SAME HOUSE.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Monday, March 24, 2003 10:55 AM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

AND FOR YOUR FEELINGS I PAID THE ULTIMATE PRICE I NOT ONLY LOST MY MOTHER BUT I ALSO LOST YOU AND MY FAMILY. i HOPE THAT YOU ARE HAPPY WITH YOUR CHOICE BECAUSE YOU JUST DESTROYED MY WHOLE WORLD.,

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Monday, March 24, 2003 11:10 AM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I didn't mean to destroy your whole world. Sorry if it turned out that way for you. If I could help you I would.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 24, 2003 7:21 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

[Stacy Erickson]  your kids would like to know if you are coming home to them, dont worry i wont bother you. just come to your kids at least

 

MARCH 25, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 11:38 AM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

[Stacy Erickson]  First of all i apologize for the e-mail that i sent last. you did not answer me back so i thought that is where you were ok.

 

[DP] OK

 

About this morning I am trying really hard to do things, I just want you to have the opputuniity to see the real me, I am trying really hard to dealwith things and i dont need you to hold that against me, It is really hardfor me to leave you alone and not to touch you and want to hug you,especially after you told me that it makes you want to runaway, and that is not what i want i do not want you to runaway from me first of all,

 

[DP] I understand, however you need to get used to us not being a couple.

 

second i am trying to give you your space so that maybe that you can actually see that it is me and not just because that is the way you want me to be. I changed along time ago and i didnt do it just for you i did it for me too. I dont just clean the house for you or the kids i do it for me too. I am also not going to school just for you and the kids i am going because it it  something i want other wise i wouldn't even be signing up for school.

 

[DP] These are all excellent things and I hope they continue. Self improvement is always good.

 

 I have changed everything about me, i am losing weight because i like how i feel since i lost that 10 pounds, i have more energy, i am not tired all the time, i can get back into some of my clothes and yes it made me feel good that you noticed and liked that i was losing weight. And yes i have noticed that you have been losing weight, when you asked me if i could see where you were losing weight at i said yes and i wasn't just saying it to be saying it. And when i call you my sexy man i mean that as a compliment because you are my sexy man whether you want to believe or not. It's not just all about what you look like. What i dont need is you rubbing it in my  face everyday that i say something to you about us and having you say back well i dont know what to tell you that is not how i feel, that hurts me even more each time you say it.

 

[DP] Ok, I will try to not say things like that.

 

 I told you that i was not going to give up on us just because you have. Thats your choice. But i am not going to throw  it all away because i know we have a future together we have a brand new house that we both love, we have two beautiful children that want their mommy and daddy together, I know you better then anyone ever will, we have 10 years that we have shared together good times and bad. I dont get mad about your work anymore, i dont get mad about them calling you when you are here, i dont get mad about you bringing work home, i am the one that kept asking you to bring it home and work on it instead of staying there until 11-12 at night.

 

[DP] All true, some more than others.

 

 I am looking for a job every day i know that is part of why you are so angry with me because i spend money and i dont bring any in, and i have changed that i havn't been spending hardly any money and the money i have spent you know about before hand, I am also starting school on monday so that i can have a career and a paycheck worth going to work for and not just a paycheck that is only big enough to pay the babysitter. You know i have the same dreams as you do, i want to be out of debt and have all of our bills paid, I want you to have your motorcycle so that we can go for rides together, I want you to have your truck that you have always wanted,I want us to be able to go and do things without having to look at the bank account and determine whether or not we can.

 

[DP] Good.

 

 I dont get mad about you sleeping in on the weekends, infact i tell the kids to be quiet so that you  can sleep, I am that person that you fell in love with all those years ago and i am that person that you asked to marry you all those years ago. And another thing all those times in the last month that you said you loved me, i know you meant it because i am not the one who said it first, A while back you said with me saying it all the time you said it made you feel like i was forcing you to say it, but i havn't forced you to say it at all. So i  know you love me. So dont hold it aginst me for trying to put our family back together that i know belongs together. If you dont want to hold me then fine dont hold me, you dont want to give me a hug dont give me a hug, you dont want to kiss me or make love to me fine dont kiss me or make love to me. But you also dont have to treat me like i have the plague or some disease, because you know i would like someone to touch me too. but that doesnt mean because we are not getting along right now i am going to look for it somewhere else. If i have to keep taking cold showers well then i will take cold showers. You just dont have to keep telling me over and over thats not how you feel. And i am not being a bitch in this letter either. I  just wanted to talk to you about this morning when you asked if i wanted a hug and then you told me dont read into it.

 

[DP] Ok. Sounds like you are finally starting to calm down. I just want to let you know that I don't treat you like you have the plague or some disease. Neither do the kids. It's only when you are acting like you have for the past couple of days that no-one wants to be around you. Because you have the ability to go from one extreme to the other in an instant. Ok. Sounds like we are getting a little bit closer to being settled and being able to move on with life. :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 11:56 AM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Why do you make it sound like we will never get back together, you say you want to look at me like you use to, but you shut me down every time i try.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:01 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Why do you make it sound like we will never get back together, you say you want to look at me like you use to, but you shut me down every time i try.

 

i CANT GET USED TO IT BECAUSE I KNOW WE BELONG TOGETHER AND YOU EVEN SAID THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR US TO GET BACK TOGETHER

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:06 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

WHY DO YOU OLY ANSWER BACK HALF ASS OF THE THINGS THAT I WRITE? WHY CANT YOU ANSWER BACK TO EVERYTHING

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:26 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Stacy,

                I don't want to miss-lead you. I am sorry I do. You need to accept that we are not a couple anymore. If you need to assign descriptors to it then you  an say we are a mother, a father and room-mates. When I said it is possible for us to get back together I meant it like ANYTHING is possible. It's not impossible.

                For now, I think it is best if you learn to accept we are not a couple.

                And for the next email you sent... I don't have all day to answer these questions. I have work to do.

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:36 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

tHEN PLEASE DONT ASK ME IF I WANT A HUG ANYMORE , I HAVE FEELINGS TOO I WOULD LOVE FOR NOTHING MORE THEN YOU TO COME BACK TO THE BEDROOM WITH ME. i HAVE NEEDS TO, I DONT HAVE A FUCK BUDDY LIKE YOU DO. i CANT JUST SIT IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER AND JACK OFF LIKE YOU DO. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO TO SO WITH ALL THE FEELINGS I HAVE.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:42 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

 

aND SECONDLY I GUESS ME AND THE KIDS NEED TO FIGURE OUT SOME WAY OF GETTING OUR OWN PLACE BECAUSE I CANT HANDLE LIVING WITH YOU AND HAVING ALL THE  FEELINGS I HAVE AND YOU JUST WANT TO BE ROOMMATES

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:47 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

GOOD BYE, JUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND ALWAYS WILL BE.

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 12:58 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Gee looks like i have  a whole nother day to get used to being by myself and being just a roommate seems how the kids are at there new homes again.

Your roommate

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 1:22 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I am sure you can find something to keep yourself busy. I hope you don't find a new place to live. There is no reason for you to have to do that except if you can't accept living with me. I hope you can learn to live with me.

Ok. I have LOTS of work to get done. Talk to you later. what do you mean you hope i dont find someplace else to live

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 1:44 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

what do you mean you hope i dont find someplace else to live. Where am i suppose to put all my feelings and my attraction for you. You know i dont have a fuck buddy like you do. The feeelings dont just come and go with me like they do with you. And dont worry i iwont disurb your work anymore.

 

Your roommate

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 1:53 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

What I mean is that I hope you can live with me and the kids and not be alone. I want you to have a place to live. I don't have an answer about your feelings. YOU are the ONLY ONE that can answer that.

 

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 2:24 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

unless you want to be my fuck buddy. No? Thats what i thought

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 2:25 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

and me and the kids will always live together in the same house where ever i choose to live.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 2:40 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Ok, Ok... You don't have to start turning mean or sarcastic.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 2:42 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I wasn't i was just asking, you know i dont have any diseases so i just  thought seems how we were just roommates we could be fuck buddies too with  no strings. sorry if you took that as being sarcastic

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 3:17 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I guess you can answer the last question i had whenever

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 3:44 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

hello are you still there

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 3:58 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Sorry, I have been busy. What was the last question you had?

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:06 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

read the e-mail i sent you. I said i am sorry if you took it as me being sarcastic, i was just asking you if we could be fuck buddies, seems how we are roommates and there are no strings attatched, you know i dont have any diseases, i wash my self, i dont stink and i am losing weight so that my legs are not fat, you even said your self that the sex was better between us.

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:12 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I don't think us being "Fuck buddies" is a good idea.

 

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:13 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

why not i told you no strings attatched, its safe sex you know i dont have  any diseases so what is so bad about you have already told me that you have  no feelings for me so what are you worried about

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:16 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

and if you have no feelings for me then you should have nothing to be worried about because it is just sex. unless you have plans of sleeping with her again and that is what your problem is

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:31 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I know your busy but it shouldn't take you that long to answer a question, you know if i am not good enough to have sex with then just say it and we wont have anything else to say to each other ever again

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 4:58 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

I don't want to have sex with you at this point.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 5:02 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

that is fine i hope you two will be very happy, we have nothing else to say to each other anymore, thats pretty good now i am not even good enough to have sex with, i am just good enough to be your roommate. Hope you enjoy the slut slut that broke us up and dont say it was for something else because you are so full of shit

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 5:13 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

so much for you saying that she could never take you away from me, she already has and i dont want to hear anymore of your lies either.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 5:13 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Whatever you say. I will be home late tonight.

 

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 5:23 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

why are you going to slut sluts, you told your kids you were going to be home early tonight. You dont have to stay away to avoid me dave i am done.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 5:29 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

well i will bring the kids to you then so you can see them for awhile you dont need to denie them just because of me.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Tuesday, March 25, 2003 8:47 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

 

YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT TALKING TO ME WHEN YOU COME TO THE HOUSE TONIGHT, YOU CAN JUST COME STRAIGHT TO YOUR BEDROOM. i WISH THAT ONE DAY YOU WAKE UP AND REALIZE WHAT YOU THROUGH AWAY AND I HOPE THAT YOU HURT JUST AS BAD AS I DO. YOU KEEP SAYING THAT EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPIER THIS WAY BUT YOU ARE SO WRONG. THE KIDS WILL NEVER BE HAPPY THAT THEY DONT GET TO SEE THEIR DADDY EVERYDAY, BECAUSE I AM ONLY STAYING HERE UNTIL I GET DONE WITH SCHOOL AND GET A GOOD JOB TO GIVE THEM THE LIFE THEY DESERVE. I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT I AM NOT HAPPY WHEN YOU ARE NOT AROUND AND I NEVER WILL. SO YOU GET TO LIVE WITH THAT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. I WILL JUST EXIST  FOR THE KIDS AND THAT IS ABOUT IT. I CANT JUST BE YOUR FRIEND LIKE YOU WANT IT HURTS TOO BAD. WE WILL BE ROOMMATES ONLY BECAUSE I HAVE NO ONE ELSE AND I DONT HAVE A PLACE I CAN GO. WHEN I GRADUATE FROM SCHOOL I WILL MAKE THE CHOICE WHERE ME AND THE KIDS ARE GOING TO LIVE AND THAT MIGHT BE IN FLORIDA AND IT MIGHT NOT. AND NO NO MATTER WHERE WE LIVE I WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM SEEING THEM. I JUST HOPE YIUR VERY HAPPY WITH YOUR CHOICE BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANYONE WHO LOVES YOU AS MUCH AS I DO OR WHO TAKES CARE OF YOU AS GOOD AS I DO, OR WHO WILL PICK YOUR CLOTHES OUT FOR YOU EVERY MORNING OR WHO SERVES YOU DINNER LIKE I DO. BUT THATS YOUR PROBLEM NOW. sO YOU JUST GO ON WITH YOUR HAPPY LIFE SO YOU CALL IT.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 9:10 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

i know your not working , you probabally left right after i did cause you cant wait to get back to the home wrecker

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 9:24 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

LOL.

Then you would be WRONG. I am at work and working when I am not replying to your emails. I know you stayed in the parking lot for a long time after I came back upstairs. Anthony and his x-girl were watching us. You don't have to be that way.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 9:28 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

so what now you have a spy that works for to tell you when i am there and when i am not. What does it matter i am sure you wasted no time at all to tell them that you dumped me. I am sure you told the home wrecker too. bet that makes her the happiest slut around. oh well

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 9:35 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

What ever you say Stacy. You don't have to be that way.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 10:46 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

either do you. just Because i know we belong together . Maybe if you opened your eyes and were not so stuck on yourself and your dick you would see that

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 10:53 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

What ever you say Stacy.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 11:26 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

yep thats your answer for everything you cant even be a man and answer any of my questions. you have all of your sarcastictic remarks but you never have any answers for the questions i ask you. I atleast deserve the answers  to all the questions i have asked you.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 11:38 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

They have been answered as good as they are going to be answered. End it already.

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Tuesday, March 25, 2003 11:57 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

i am so tired dave all i have ever done is love you i dont deserve the way you are acting so cold. the children are waiting up for their room mate.

 

MARCH 26, 2003

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 12:01 AM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

i know you dont give a shit about me , but you need to come home and take care of these kids i am throwing up blood really bad.and they wont go to bed.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, March 26, 2003 12:10 AM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

Why isn't Zachary in bed like he was told? Anyway I will be there about 1am or sooner. I just finished setting up the MOR scholastic for this month. I don't think I am being cold.

 

David Prather :)

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 12:13 AM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

 

you never do you dont ever think your doing anything wrong thats the problem you act like you are a angel all the time and that i am the one that is always wrong. But this time your wrong and i cant wait until i can  finally prove to you about our future i know we have. And i told him he could stay up and watch a movie but now neither one of them want to go to

bed because they are waiting for you.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 3:30 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?messages

 

This is the last e-mail i will send you unless i need to check my messages or tell you something about the kids. There are alot of things that you dont think are a big deal. But they are to me, one of them is you calling me all those names. I am a person and i do have feelings and wants and desires. That is why you say you have looked at me you see who i am, but if you really looked like you say you have you would have seen that about me, I am a loving and caring person, that has morals, and dreams that include you, right now i have no self respect or self esteem or dignity left. But i am working on getting that back by going back to school, and finally giving my life more meaning then just you and the kids. And if you cant be supportive of me like i have of you in the last 10 years then just step aside and dont offer that support anymore. Becasue i dont need that kind of support. and i dont need that kind of friend if i want that kind of friend all i have to do is go to the neighbors around here for that. I have changed into a good person and i will continue to change into a even better person for the rest of my life. And as far as growing up i grow up more and more every day, there isnt a person out there that doesnt need to continue to grow up for the rest of their lives.  So think what you want of me but if it is not something nice or posative to say me then please keep it to your self.

 

And thank you i will see you later this afternoon

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, March 26, 2003 12:23 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: messages

 

have i recieved any messages

your rommate

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, March 26, 2003 1:38 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?messages

 

all i wanted to know if i has any messages. I didnt know that was asking too much.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, March 26, 2003 1:50 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?messages

Importance:           High

 

Knock it off. I just got out of the DO call ms. Snooty.

 

You're roomy

 

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, March 26, 2003 2:35 PM

To:          'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?messages

 

first of all i was not being snooty, it has been such a joy listening to you call me all these new things. when is the name calling going to stop? Your not with me anymore so you dont have the right to call me anything. you can save those names for your new girlfriend.  Secondly i sent you the e-mail at 12:30 and your just now responding to it and you didnt even so much as tell me if i had any messages or not. Third if i didnt want you to go with me to school i would not have got down on my hands and knees like a fucking dog and begged you to come with me. I am tired of you treating me like i am one of your enemies, hell you treat your employees and the people you work with, with more respect then you do me.

 

-----Original Message-----

From:      David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, March 26, 2003 2:58 PM

To:          David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

Subject:  RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?messages

 

Excuse me. I didn't think it was that big a deal. Ok. NO MESSAGES. And I  will see you this afternoon.

 

MARCH 27, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

 From:     Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

 Sent:      Thursday, March 27, 2003 12:30 PM

 To:         'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

 Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

messages   

Just wondering if you were still going with me or if you have changed your mind. You seemed to be a little short with me when you left. I really am sorry for last night. It did slip out i did not say it on purpose.  Stacy  

 

-----Original Message-----

 From:     David Prather [SMTP:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

 Sent:      Thursday, March 27, 2003 12:39 PM

 To:         David Prather(Home) (E-mail 2)

 Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please? messages

 

  Yes, I will still go with you tonight. Lets just try to forget the last 15  minutes of last night. We ALMOST went to bed on a good note last night.  David Prather :) 

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2003 1:11 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

messages  Deal, thank you  

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Thursday, March 27, 2003 5:59 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: school  where are you i have to be there at 7  

 

MARCH 28, 2003

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Friday, March 28, 2003 12:03 AM

To: 'DavidP@tampabay.rr.com'

Subject: Friends

  You are so proud of your relationship with her that you cant even have the decency to tell your kids where you are going. Why did you even bother to come to school with me or sit down to the table and eat dinner with me.  That is being a fucking coward if you cant even tell your children the truth. You dont give a shit about what we built together other wise you  would not of thrown it away for her. And that is exactly what you have  done. Dont fucking lie to me and tell me that you dont have feelings for  her, because i know other wise. It wouldnt have mattered how many guys she  fucked you would still want her. When you get some type of disease and  which you will i am going to laugh because you deserve it. I dont know why  you just dont get it over with and move in with her. Me and the kids will  be fine and i will figure out something to do with them while i am school  because i dont want them any where near her.    

 

MARCH 30, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Sunday, March 30, 2003 7:20 AM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Cc: 'davidp@tampabay.rr.com'

Subject: RE: Please read this and please dont say whatever please?

messages

 Dave, i hope you are happy with your new life. I think its pretty crapy  that you have to wait untill i calm down to tell me whether or not your  happy, i think that is just an excuse. I am not happy, but what do you care  right? Kids are not happy also but oh well right? Dave is happy that is the  only one who should be happy. You keep saying you need a break, then take  your break but dont exspect me to act like it is no big deal like you think  it is. Because i have feelings even though you dont.   

 

MARCH 31, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, March 31, 2003 5:25 PM

To: 'davidp@ccitechnology.com'

Subject: hello  where the hell are you. i need to leave for school.