E-mails January 2003

 

 

 

JANUARY 20, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, January 20, 2003 4:44 PM

To: David Prather(Home) (E-mail)

Subject:

 

I dont know what your problem has been. You cant lie to me anymore. I can tell when you are lyingyou are either seeing someone else or you just dont want anything to do with me anymore. You lie to me when you say you are coming home, you lie to me about your phone, you have a fit when you think i am going to answer your phone. If your seeing someone else just be a man and tell me and quit lying about it. It is not fair to me and it is certainly not fair to the kids. I can't live like this anymore. I dont lie to you about anything, i dont keep any secrets from you and it should be the same as for you. You have been acting strange lately just like you were in oregon and when you were talking to miss bitch on the computer and the phone. Everything is all about you in your little world everything is all about you. I guess that is where we are different because in my world its always you and the kids that come first never me.I think more of our relationship more then you do. You just think of me as someone that bitches too much and someone to take care of your kids someone to cook your food and someone to cook your meals.i guess thats all i am to you aanymore. If this is true i wish you would tell me so that i can try to put my life back together instead of wasting it on this so called family.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Monday, January 20, 2003 6:43 PM

To: David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject: home

 

I guess we forgot how to read a clock once again. I guess unless your not at work again. I am so tired of the lies.

 

JANUARY 22, 2003

-----Original Message-----

From:      Stacy Erickson [SMTP:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent:       Wednesday, January 22, 2003 10:16 AM

To:          David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject:  our relationship

 

Dear Dave, I  have been doing alot of thinking the last couple of days. You may think its bullshit or you may even think it is funny like you always do. But this seems to be the only way you know how to communicate is with e-mails. So here goes nothing. I have made alot of mistakes in the past that i am not very proud of like lying to you going behind your back and doing things, saying things to the kids, and the worst thing of all I cheated on you. I regret every thing that i have done wrong in the past and if i could go back and do things differently i would. I have apologized so much until i am so tired of saying i am sorry. You never have a problem dredging up the past and throwing it in my face whenever you feel the need. When we started dating i never said i was perfect, There isn't a person alive that is and that includes you.  But you know what you have made mistakes in the past too. I am not going to dredge them up though because i know how to leave them in the past, you know what they are so i really dont need to say them. I just dont understand why i keep having to pay the price for the rest of my life for things that i have sone in the past. I thought we got through that and moved on but i guess i thought wrong. But i guess you seem to have this need to start all over again and dredge up the past doing the same things we both did in the past. I have told you several times that i have changed since my mom passed away but i guess that doesn't matter that i am trying to change for the better for all of us, i am going back to school on the 17th of next month so that i can have a career just like you to make our family better but i guess taht just doesn't seem to matter to you . But dont take it out on our children, If you dont want to spend time with me and you dont want me to be a part of your life that is fine but the kids need their daddy. I told you a long time ago before we even had Zachary that i didnt want their life to be like mine when i was little, I never had my dad around because he was always at the bar, in away you are acting no different then he did. Instead of drinking your always at work so you tell me anyway. They get up in the morning and go to school without seeing daddy because daddy can't seem to get up and they are lucky if they see daddy at night before they go to bed. You leave the house at 8:30-9:00 and they are lucky if they see you before they go to bed. You come home anywhere from 7:00-3am. I that really fair to them. You dont want me to be an everday part of your life thats fine, You dont want to have a relationship with me that is fine too. Just tell me now so that i can try to move on with my life, Dont string me along with the bullshit that one day you love me and one day you dont. And dont lie to me either because i have learned from my past, when you lie you not only are lying to me but you are lying to our children. And that is not fair to them. The one thing that makes us different is that when i say I Love You i mean it. I really do care about what happens to you and where you are and what you are doing. But obviously you dont feel the same way. Because when you lie to me about where you are and when your coming home that really hurts. Well that is all i have to say I wont say it again because i dont have the energy to try anymore on a one sided relationship.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: David Prather [mailto:davidp@ccitechnology.com]

Sent: Wednesday, January 22, 2003 11:11 AM

To: 'serickso@tampabay.rr.com'

Subject: RE: our relationship

 

Stacy,

                I guess I did get this. I don't know what to say to make things better. I have been very busy at work. We are moving again in about 2 months, we have more work than we have had in the past during these "so called" slow months. Half my staff is out sick.

                I don't know what to tell you. Grin and bear it or just shut up. I have a lot to do and am doing the best I can. I really don't like you snooping into my business. I will let you know what you need to know. If in your mind that means we are finished then I guess that is what it is. It is all I have time for right now. I know I need to spend more time with the kids and I am doing the best I can and still keep a roof over our heads and food on the table.

                I am very proud of you wanting to go back to school and improve your education. It will pay off in more ways than just $$$. It did for me anyway.

                Anyway I have to a lot of work to get done so I guess take things as they are or get out. Find a hobby so that you are snooping into my wallet..

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, January 22, 2003 11:54 AM

To: David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject:

 

There you go again dredging up the past, You really dont know how to live in the present. That was 2 summers ago. I woudnt have to snoop if you would be honest with me. But thats fine you want every thing so private i wont ask you about your life and you dont ask about mine.

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Wednesday, January 22, 2003 12:18 PM

To: David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject:

 

what cant answer back. let me guess you dont have time once again.

 

JANUARY 24, 2003

 

-----Original Message-----

From: Stacy Erickson [mailto:serickso@tampabay.rr.com]

Sent: Friday, January 24, 2003 2:13 AM

To: David Prather(CCI) (E-mail)

Subject:

 

Dave please give me another chance. I love you so much and i love our children. Ireally do want to spend the rest of my life with you. What ever you seem to believe it is not because my mother past away. Yes my mother is gone and I miss her dearly. And if she were still here i would still want to spend the rest of my life with you. That is why i moved to Florida with you. What ever you may think.